My heart was again stolen for a brief moment by.....

Paulo Coelho.




 I read Paulo's Blog often and I am constantly inspired and moved by his thoughts and words.  I have read his book 11 Minutes a couple of times and to just be reminded today could not have been timed any better. I needed to hear that most people feel that love is very important and so very confusing.  Love can cause so many things within us and it takes a disaster for a person to realize/recognize that we are doing something right or wrong or living somewhere in the middle of those two extremes....





If we listen.... life will always give us what we need when we need it....





Again, Paulo thank you for your words....

“At every moment of our lives we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.” 

(I have lived this way for so long and always felt like I was wrong for living this way.)

“When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side… And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? Life moves very fast. It rushes from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.”

(What would I do with Love in my life?  I think I would just fade into the background, forever matching all that is around me never showing who I really am.  Though Love moves us to the points of breaking without it life would not be worth living)

“If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself.”

(Being ready to Love, that is something I thought I had done in my life.  Though in looking at my past I was not ready to Love when I met my Love that Never Was.  I thought I was and so did he but in the end due to not really being ready we are now both left alone and heartbroken.)

“If I’m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre love out of my systems.”

(This just makes me smile, I know that I have had many small, little loves in my life, usually due to my ability to see the good in everyone and how much I love to inspire and support the person that I am with.  I have always learned something about my little loves)

“Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally come to realize that nothing really belongs to them.”

(This brings me straight to my Love Lost, the pain I experienced because I loved him was at times truly unbearable.  I could not see or accept that my Love Lost would never be in my life.  The process that proceeded was 10 years longs and my heart will always have a small wound from knowing I will never have my Love Lost ever again.)

“The art of sex is the art of controlled abandon.”

(I have come into a new place in my life when in comes to sex.  I have learned so much in just the last few months then I had in 15 years.  I have learned to love this sacred act and to completely embrace my own natural sensuality, which was always there I chose instead to hide behind my wedding ring.)

“Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.”

(Passion.  With out Passion my life would not be worth living.  I thrive from all my passionate endeavors and I have been this way my entire life.)

“In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.”

(This is so true, I blamed so many people for my feelings.  I was such a hurt little girl for a long time.)

“The great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.”

(Perhaps this is why I am currently feelings disjunctured.  I know complete Love, lost Love, profane Love and so on... I have been looking, searching, struggling with always wanting to fulfill my need for Love. At least this quote validates my feelings.)

" Pain and suffering are used to justify the one thing that brings only joy: love. "     

(I am at a point in my life where I am questioning how much does a person go through for love.  My main reasoning for this is I am the type of person who can endure so very much which then causes a skewed vision of how I am being treated by the other person.)

“Considering the way the world is, one happy day is almost a miracle.”

(I want constant miracles in my life.)

From the diary of Maria, the prostitute in ELEVEN MINUTES.