I had a realization...
After processing a chain of events that occurred in a short amount of time there was this "light bulb" realization.... I REALLY miss being within the Latino culture. After my divorce, I lost most of my friends from the Latino culture and I just thought I had to accept that I was never going to be part of that culture. It had been a year since my last real interactions with anyone Hispanic. (Yes I dated Hispanic men but most of them used their heritage when convenient NOT just owning in.) Through a rather random series of events I managed to meet a very nice Colombian. The Colombian had invited me to a friends house (mostly due to double booking himself) regardless of that I ended up having fun... on my own- without my ex-husband.
Though the evening ended up unexpectedly a little out of control and consisted of the following events:
Way to much booze
Lots of dancing
Everyone passing out on odd places
Losing the Colombian I came with
And- experiencing a moderate case of memory loss
I was awaken that morning by the words, " Esta vivo?" ("Are you alive?")
As I reflected on that night and just what space I was in... I realized that I missed everything about Latino culture.....I miss Salsa dancing, I miss the food, and most of all I miss the people... It felt so good just hanging out, drinking, dancing just 'being' there. I was exhilarated after that night, I should have felt like death and taken 3 days to recover but this was not the case.
This past week at work I was very productive and I did not feel burnt out.
This was I feeling I had not felt in over a year.
And... I have to say it felt so good to smile again.
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