Yes, I can...

So... as part of my "let get Leslie's shit together" program... I am finally figuring out that, "Yes, I motherfucking can!".  Why it has taken so long?  Well, I do know the answer, which mostly consists of me living in the past, in my Mother's past and me just thinking that I needed a man in my life in order to get on with my life.  I don't mean that I needed another husband, lover, 'just someone to fill the space' person... I meant that I HAVE to stand, REALLY FUCKING STAND! Stand for what I believe in, for what I am all about, and most of all.....

for my true beliefs...

My beliefs in L-O-V-E, in the greater good, in allowing myself to be happy and be positive, to be the crazy impulsive, caring individual that I always have been.

I love being the person who Loves Hispanic culture but does not speak Spanish,  I love salsa dancing even of I have been dancing wrong for 9 years... I love being the person who can list off the top Italian motorcycles in the world but still does not own a motorcycle...  I still expect a man to open my door and treat me like a lady even if I do own power tools.... I Fucking LOVE cursing!  And that is a BIG FUCK YOU! to anyone who doesn't like it!!

I am OK with being an asshole when I need to be.... but I will always be the person who attempts to reason first... if I am being an asshole to you, know that it was a RE-action.  There is a reason why I would treat another person that way. 

I have always known these things about myself but I have never felt that these were strengths... For the first time I now know.. they are... every last one of my crazy, off the wall, eccentricities... have made (me).  I really like 'me'.  I really do like who I am.  All the parts that I need to work on... I know that I have to, and at some point, I will.  I know that I am helpful and a good friend which anyone who knows me will attest to that.

I L-O-V-E... I LOVE like no one else I know... I love deeply, passionately, endlessly, hopefully and I know there is someone out there for me... only me.  I respect and hold dear all the past Love's of my life and they all know this...

I love, LOVE and tonight, I know there is nothing wrong with being the person who, for one of the first times in my life- knowing that I still believe in LOVE like a have nothing to lose.