my wedding ring....
There it was, on my dresser. I had dumped out a box of my earrings to find my black pearl earrings that were going to look amazing with the outfit I had on. I heard a distinct heavy metal hitting wood sound, there "IT" was... my wedding ring. I had taken that ring off almost exactly a year ago- there it was... 7 years staring back at me. I have no idea what exactly prompted me to take it with me but there the ring went on my right hand as I was racing out the door. The ring was heavy. I had forgotten... the weight of the white gold, for a long time was a reminder of sharing my life with another, happiness, feeling the sun from both sides....
I took the ring on and off throughout my day. I couldn't leave it alone. Remembering I used to have a callus, I rubbed the fleshy part of my hand just under my left ring finger. The callus was gone, it had been for some time. There was an empty feeling that started in my throat and moved its way into my heart. This feeling was coupled with flu-like symptoms and not having a significant other to take care of me...I couldn't help it... I teared up.
Unable to focus on my work, I looked up the translation for one of my favorite Juan Luis Guerra songs, Ay Mujer it had been playing at the time of my 2 second attention span...
Ay Mujer
Oh Woman Oh woman
Ay mujer
(your body) (it does)(it lacks)(it lacks already) I already miss your body
tu cuerpo me hace falta -falta- ya
(your lips) (my refuge) Your Lips, my refuge
tus labios mi refugio
(that) (they leave) (drunken) (of) (so much) (kissing) They leave me drunken
que me dejan ebrio de tanto besar overwhelmed by kisses
Ay mujer Oh woman
Oh Woman
(your) (laughter) (my) (opportunity) Your laughter is my freedom
tu risa mi oportunidad (?)
(and if not) (you are) (with me) and if you’re not with me
y si no estás conmigo
(all goes) (dying) (and) (not) (I am able) (dreaming) everything dies and I am unable to
todo va muriendo y no puedo soñar dream
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(remains) (large) (already) (know it) It mains (immeasurable),by now
Me queda grande, ya lo sé I know
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(Itself) (multiplies) (and grows) It multiplies and grows Se multiplica y crece
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(is the principle) (and the final) It’s principle and final
es el principio y el final
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(they are born) (wings and) (flies over) (the sea) Bearing wings and flying over the
le nacen alas y vuela sobre el mar sea
Ay mujer Oh woman
Oh woman
(my shadow) (goes behind) (of ? –you-) My shadow itself behind you
mi sombra va detrás de tí
(barefoot) (itself) (naked) Barefoot and naked
descalza se desnuda
(and) (among) (your chest) (beginning) (to live) a new beginning to live amongst
y entre tu pecho comienzo a vivir your chest
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(remains) (large) (already) (know it) It remains (immeasurable), by now
Me queda grande, ya lo sé I know
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(itself) (multiplies) (and) (grows) It multiplies and grows
se multiplica y crece
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(is the principle) (and the final) It’s principle and final
es el principio y el final
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(they are born)(wings and)(flies over)(the sea) Bearing wings and flying over the sea
le nacen alas y vuela sobre el mar
I had needed some help with the translation so I called my Tainted Love. In the process of asking for help, I was given an opportunity. At this opportunity I saw my Tainted Love. It was nice to see him again. When he spoke, of course in true Leo form he managed to complete over take the entire room with his charm. There was another "ping" that happened to me this day. This ping was in my heart. I could feel myself wanting to cry. I was so angry, "Stupid fucking asshole, why, fucking why!" I just kept asking myself over and over. I had to focus to regroup and get through the evening.
By the end of the day.... I may have an opportunity to change some things in my life.
Which I should feel better about.
There it was, on my dresser. I had dumped out a box of my earrings to find my black pearl earrings that were going to look amazing with the outfit I had on. I heard a distinct heavy metal hitting wood sound, there "IT" was... my wedding ring. I had taken that ring off almost exactly a year ago- there it was... 7 years staring back at me. I have no idea what exactly prompted me to take it with me but there the ring went on my right hand as I was racing out the door. The ring was heavy. I had forgotten... the weight of the white gold, for a long time was a reminder of sharing my life with another, happiness, feeling the sun from both sides....
I took the ring on and off throughout my day. I couldn't leave it alone. Remembering I used to have a callus, I rubbed the fleshy part of my hand just under my left ring finger. The callus was gone, it had been for some time. There was an empty feeling that started in my throat and moved its way into my heart. This feeling was coupled with flu-like symptoms and not having a significant other to take care of me...I couldn't help it... I teared up.
Unable to focus on my work, I looked up the translation for one of my favorite Juan Luis Guerra songs, Ay Mujer it had been playing at the time of my 2 second attention span...
Oh Woman Oh woman
Ay mujer
(your body) (it does)(it lacks)(it lacks already) I already miss your body
tu cuerpo me hace falta -falta- ya
(your lips) (my refuge) Your Lips, my refuge
tus labios mi refugio
(that) (they leave) (drunken) (of) (so much) (kissing) They leave me drunken
que me dejan ebrio de tanto besar overwhelmed by kisses
Ay mujer Oh woman
Oh Woman
(your) (laughter) (my) (opportunity) Your laughter is my freedom
tu risa mi oportunidad (?)
(and if not) (you are) (with me) and if you’re not with me
y si no estás conmigo
(all goes) (dying) (and) (not) (I am able) (dreaming) everything dies and I am unable to
todo va muriendo y no puedo soñar dream
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(remains) (large) (already) (know it) It mains (immeasurable),by now
Me queda grande, ya lo sé I know
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(Itself) (multiplies) (and grows) It multiplies and grows Se multiplica y crece
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(is the principle) (and the final) It’s principle and final
es el principio y el final
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(they are born) (wings and) (flies over) (the sea) Bearing wings and flying over the
le nacen alas y vuela sobre el mar sea
Ay mujer Oh woman
Oh woman
(my shadow) (goes behind) (of ? –you-) My shadow itself behind you
mi sombra va detrás de tí
(barefoot) (itself) (naked) Barefoot and naked
descalza se desnuda
(and) (among) (your chest) (beginning) (to live) a new beginning to live amongst
y entre tu pecho comienzo a vivir your chest
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(remains) (large) (already) (know it) It remains (immeasurable), by now
Me queda grande, ya lo sé I know
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(itself) (multiplies) (and) (grows) It multiplies and grows
se multiplica y crece
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(is the principle) (and the final) It’s principle and final
es el principio y el final
(is) (that) (your) (love) Is that your love?
Es que tu amor
(they are born)(wings and)(flies over)(the sea) Bearing wings and flying over the sea
le nacen alas y vuela sobre el mar
I had needed some help with the translation so I called my Tainted Love. In the process of asking for help, I was given an opportunity. At this opportunity I saw my Tainted Love. It was nice to see him again. When he spoke, of course in true Leo form he managed to complete over take the entire room with his charm. There was another "ping" that happened to me this day. This ping was in my heart. I could feel myself wanting to cry. I was so angry, "Stupid fucking asshole, why, fucking why!" I just kept asking myself over and over. I had to focus to regroup and get through the evening.
By the end of the day.... I may have an opportunity to change some things in my life.
Which I should feel better about.
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