Staying at home all day today was so very difficult.
I had to face issues that I can normally keep at a different level because I usually have my ridiculous job to focus on.
I am left all alone with my feelings.... facing all that is within me is more frightening then any horror movie.
This statement is so pathetic-
I am avoiding my feelings because I am overwhelmed by them every time I am left alone with them.
This sucks....
I hate that I can't bring myself to just 'deal'.... FUCK!!!!
Today.... was the day that dor the first time I.....
I really may mean it when I said.
"I do NOT care"
That statement makes me so very sad, I have always considered myself a caring person..... I hate being in this place.... I know that I do not belong there but I am being forces there whether I like it or not.
It will just be one of the unpleasant parts of that journey.....
I had to face issues that I can normally keep at a different level because I usually have my ridiculous job to focus on.
I am left all alone with my feelings.... facing all that is within me is more frightening then any horror movie.
This statement is so pathetic-
I am avoiding my feelings because I am overwhelmed by them every time I am left alone with them.
This sucks....
I hate that I can't bring myself to just 'deal'.... FUCK!!!!
Today.... was the day that dor the first time I.....
I really may mean it when I said.
"I do NOT care"
That statement makes me so very sad, I have always considered myself a caring person..... I hate being in this place.... I know that I do not belong there but I am being forces there whether I like it or not.
Leslie- remember... this may be part of that journey...
It will just be one of the unpleasant parts of that journey.....
(I can't even convince myself today) Nice... real nice....
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